You lie there sleepless,restless thinking about things that are the reason you're shading the tears now. You pledge yourself to forget it and move forward but yet you're stuck on it. You pledge ,you cry, you said yourself no more her yet you do nothing... You smile, You laugh but deep inside only you know how much it hurts to lose someone who has been so close and now is just a distant memory. I know I have been through all of it.. I have felt it. I have gone through it. I know how hard it becomes to suddenly see someone so close to you go away..It hurts even more to be ignored. You were never meant to go, yet you found your own road..Your smiles are my tears that I shade,Your happiness,my grief. Your silence is my answer. Answer to my trust , to my belief on you. Yes and big silence to silence all the past beliefs of ours. In you I didn't just loose you but I lost my belief, my reason to aim high ,my dream to dream big. And more or less I have lost myself. ...